It’s one of the greatest gifts you can give yourself, to forgive. Forgive everybody. ~ Maya Angelou
We had our biggest row and Aryan left for an all boys’ trip. I didn’t know where he was and it frustrated me further. Somewhere in my heart I felt weak and wanted to reach out to him and be sorry. But, I did the opposite, letting my ego guide me and overtake my compassionate self. I just ignored the thought of him and busied myself. Life goes on with or without someone even though they take away with them a lot more than just the peace of your mind. I felt scattered everywhere without him.
Days passed and I didn’t hear from him. I was getting worried now. But my mind argued with my better judgment, waiting for him to make the first move. I took the vanity of being the independent woman too seriously and even though it was ripping my heart open I stood by the sisterhood vows.
Pubs, friends, parties, drives, music, Netflix, taking stock of the Facebook likes or Instagram hearts, work, dates and online chats nothing could take him out of my head. But I continued to remain upset with him although the reason we fought had also slipped out of my mind.
One evening I returned home wrecked and drunk. My pup Sky was leaping with joy as usual and I shoved him away, he almost fell on the other side and whined for a long time. He refused to take the food and looked at me with tearful puppy eyes. I laid my head down on the couch in the living and some tears welled up in my eyes and I couldn’t control the sobs that followed. Before my tears could escape my weary eyes Sky was by my side licking my face and I was overwhelmed by this little creature of the heavens who was so simple in loving and expressing unlike us who grow up to be difficult and complicated. It was the longest night as I waited for the morning, so that I could call him and tell him the simple thing that would save me from all the pain and free my soul -“sorry.”
It seems like I overslept, as when I woke up, I was greeted by his smiling face and sparkling eyes which had so much love for me, the aroma of the tea and an excited pup jumping all around happily felt surreal like I just woke up from a nightmare to a beautiful dream. I sat him down near me and opened my mouth to say sorry but before I could, he sealed them with a kiss.
We hugged for the longest time knowing very well that we belonged together and being without each other was unthinkable. There weren’t any words needed, just the presence. That is how probably matters of the heart get resolved. Where the ease goes out, ego walks in and all over the relationship.
Look at the three year old toddler or a pet. They are perpetually in the state of glee as forgiveness comes easy to them. Awaken that little child in you and forgive everyone who acted as a troublemaker in your life and also those who mean more than their misgivings.
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*Originally published by me as an Alias of Editor Bob in 123greetingsCom Blog.